“Sometimes it’s our turn to make the next big move” Life’s not a game but sometimes I feel like I am in a game of chess. Movement on the board. Sometimes movements get me closer to my goal sometimes movements waste time so I can actually figure out where I do what to go. Sometimes a move ends up setting me back. And sometimes life takes me by surprise with a move I didn’t see coming. Today I hope, is forward movement toward a goal.  Today will be full of meetings, some about food, some about construction, and some about a car. My blackberry is already at 30% battery life, probably should have remembered to plug that little guy in last night, thank goodness for car chargers and coffee. So now it’s time to walk the dog and start the busy day, which I hope has an hour for yoga in it somewhere.

“Sometimes it’s our turn to make the next big move” Life’s not a game but sometimes I feel like I am in a game of chess. Movement on the board. Sometimes movements get me closer to my goal sometimes movements waste time so I can actually figure out where I do what to go. Sometimes a move ends up setting me back. And sometimes life takes me by surprise with a move I didn’t see coming.

Today I hope, is forward movement toward a goal. 

Today will be full of meetings, some about food, some about construction, and some about a car. My blackberry is already at 30% battery life, probably should have remembered to plug that little guy in last night, thank goodness for car chargers and coffee.

So now it’s time to walk the dog and start the busy day, which I hope has an hour for yoga in it somewhere.

Lately I made a significant life shift. One that is beginning to revolve around the sweet little cakes for one that are pictured above. This I am passionate about, and only slightly scared out of my mind about. Quitting my regular paying job where I was extremely unhappy and swapping it out for my kitchen where my favorite music plays while the smell of butter and sugar fill the air, I think, is worth a little leap of faith. Right now the dream… the hope is to have an operational store front open by April… the month of my 26th birthday. What a present that would be.  So as my nights and days begin to consist of researching kitchen equipment, tweaking recipies, finding out how to make the icing just a little more freaking fluffy, having a web page designed, putting together a menu and finding an elusive black box, I keep reminding myself… I’ve wanted this for almost 4 years… and I am finally going for it. So if you’re in Lubbock Texas, when you see Crave Confectionery open, drive through and get your little piece of heaven for one & if I’m covered in flour… just smile and keep driving.

Lately I made a significant life shift. One that is beginning to revolve around the sweet little cakes for one that are pictured above. This I am passionate about, and only slightly scared out of my mind about. Quitting my regular paying job where I was extremely unhappy and swapping it out for my kitchen where my favorite music plays while the smell of butter and sugar fill the air, I think, is worth a little leap of faith.

Right now the dream… the hope is to have an operational store front open by April… the month of my 26th birthday. What a present that would be. 

So as my nights and days begin to consist of researching kitchen equipment, tweaking recipies, finding out how to make the icing just a little more freaking fluffy, having a web page designed, putting together a menu and finding an elusive black box, I keep reminding myself… I’ve wanted this for almost 4 years… and I am finally going for it.

So if you’re in Lubbock Texas, when you see Crave Confectionery open, drive through and get your little piece of heaven for one & if I’m covered in flour… just smile and keep driving.

2010 is about to be just a memory, and as it winds down I can’t help but think what an amazing, long, hard, crazy, great, growing year it was.  In 2010 I bought my first house. I fell in love I spent time in one of my favorite cities, Las Vegas I got my heart broken by said love I made new friends, and kept incredible old friends I became addicted to both coffee and candles.  The first and only book I have ever written was publish and put on shelves and on line in June. I got a speeding ticket for the first time in 4 years So many things happened between January 1st 2010 and December 31 2010. I am so grateful for the person who God is shaping me to be, so thankful that this God of mine loves me to much to keep me the same He saw me Jan 1st 2010. So here’s to a new year. May mine and yours be filled with laughter, and growth, and fun and learning, and adventures and most of all love.

2010 is about to be just a memory, and as it winds down I can’t help but think what an amazing, long, hard, crazy, great, growing year it was. 

In 2010 I bought my first house.

I fell in love

I spent time in one of my favorite cities, Las Vegas

I got my heart broken by said love

I made new friends, and kept incredible old friends

I became addicted to both coffee and candles. 

The first and only book I have ever written was publish and put on shelves and on line in June.

I got a speeding ticket for the first time in 4 years

So many things happened between January 1st 2010 and December 31 2010.

I am so grateful for the person who God is shaping me to be, so thankful that this God of mine loves me to much to keep me the same He saw me Jan 1st 2010. So here’s to a new year. May mine and yours be filled with laughter, and growth, and fun and learning, and adventures and most of all love.

Today one of my small comforts is the Japanese Cherry Blossom shampoo I used which is endlessly filling my morning with its sweet scent. I was walking my dog yesterday and a branch caught my leg, it happened to catch a part of my leg where a pretty decent gash resided earlier this summer. It took forever to heal, because I wouldn’t get stitches, and I didn’t stay off of it at all. But eventually it did heal. I sometimes forget it’s there right below my knee. It’s a scar from June, and now we’re in December, a completely different part of the year far away from the accident that caused the only scar I have.  When the branch grabbed it though I quickly remembered it was there & scared over but not just like new, still tender, a little easier to hurt than the rest of me. My heart had a similar thing happen last night. A cut that has scared closed, one that I have been carefully protecting, was opened slightly. I forgot it was there too. Until it was all too late. & a part of my heart that can’t take much in the way of being hurt in this way… got bruised. Rose Kennedy was quoted once saying…’It has been said, time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.’ & Rose, I can’t help but whole heartedly agree with you…

Today one of my small comforts is the Japanese Cherry Blossom shampoo I used which is endlessly filling my morning with its sweet scent.

I was walking my dog yesterday and a branch caught my leg, it happened to catch a part of my leg where a pretty decent gash resided earlier this summer. It took forever to heal, because I wouldn’t get stitches, and I didn’t stay off of it at all. But eventually it did heal. I sometimes forget it’s there right below my knee. It’s a scar from June, and now we’re in December, a completely different part of the year far away from the accident that caused the only scar I have. 

When the branch grabbed it though I quickly remembered it was there & scared over but not just like new, still tender, a little easier to hurt than the rest of me.

My heart had a similar thing happen last night. A cut that has scared closed, one that I have been carefully protecting, was opened slightly. I forgot it was there too. Until it was all too late. & a part of my heart that can’t take much in the way of being hurt in this way… got bruised.

Rose Kennedy was quoted once saying…’It has been said, time heals all wounds. I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.’

& Rose, I can’t help but whole heartedly agree with you…

“I know the end of the story, I’ll come up from the wilderness leaning on my Beloved…His love is written on my heart, stronger than the grave, nothing can quench it, and there truly is no better love than this… (Songs of Songs)”
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Sometimes, love letters come out of the Lords love story so vividly to me, it shocks me. The way this Creator adores me… loves me… & the way He sees me. I love the season I am in right now in my life, it took me a while to love it… to learn to love it. Being here now though I wouldn’t change a thing, God always brings me through the journey in exactly the right way. So thankful for my Lord who knows me better than I know myself. 

Sitting here listening to Jon Thurlow my heart came alive and I stopped everything and sat, waiting on Him, soaking, singing over Him my love and waiting. After this past few weeks of difficulty and discouragement I knew again with all confidence… there is no where else I want to be and nothing else I would rather be doing.

I miss my Jesus every moment I don’t feel Him near (He’s always there, I’m the one who isn’t always there with Him, I walked off to roam)  This feeling of being drenched in His love, feeling completely enveloped, strengthened, and driven in Him…Wanting to live pursuing Him and these intimate encounters with Him.

I pray for grace for all who encounter this moment, or moments like I have over the past few weeks. Moments where you feel weak, moments where you feel lost, moments when you are broken and hurt, moments where you hope in something so much bigger than you right now. Moments when you don’t feel the Lord near and you must push your way into His courts, His presence. My hope is for grace that you may draw near to Him for He is faithful and desires to draw near to you… that His word would run swiftly and be glorified in your hearts and lives… may He direct your hearts toward the real Love of you life, and revive you with a holy transformation of light that will ruin you for anything else…

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